cynicalboo

Stress and acne free skin (well almost)

Thu, 22 May 2008 07:47:54 GMT

So, I thought it was about time for an update as I have barely touched this or my blog in recent times.

A lot has happened. It looks like I'm going to be kept on at my job as funding has been extended; it also seems that I might be getting a promotion.

However, on the more negative side, I have been suffering a lot of work-related stress yesterday. I like the responsibility of having extra work to do - however, I do find it frustrating when I get paid the same as a colleague and said colleague actually just gazes around the room aimlessly for most of the day, leaves the room constantly and when she is actually at her desk - just eats. She also sniffs and tsks constantly and it's getting to the point now where I can no longer work with her as I can actually feel my fists clenching and I have to restrain myself from hitting something. Unfortunately, I do know that I am the problem as I am just so easily wound up.

Of course, I don't feel overly kindly towards her following the whole 'office bullying' incident either, where it got to the stage where I was going home in tears every day and was scared to come in to work.

I now have a boyfriend, who also works for a local government, though not the same one. He is 25, hot as hell and so gentle and kind and I'm very happy! We're going on holiday at the end of June and I cannot wait. I NEED a holiday.

My skin has cleared up an amazing amount in the past couple of weeks. Sure, it's not perfect yet, but give it another month and I honestly think it won't be far off. You definately wouldn't say I have acne anymore and it's so soft. How did I do it? Deotoxing and drinking a silly amount of water. I don't even like processed sugary stuff that much anymore....Joy!

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 10:54:41 GMT

Please stop doing this to me....

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 15:17:40 GMT

I feel so selfish, I know people are having serious problems, but for the love of god, stop fucking taking it out on me.

Yes, you've all been through shit that I can't even imagine.

But please...stop fucking taking it out on me, I can't take this.

For the second day running, I'm struggling to keep my emotions in check at work...

P1ss3d off h31s.

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 10:45:35 GMT

I have a real strop on.

Am not a happy bunny.

And why am I so bloody hideous.

Sleep

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 10:11:44 GMT

I'm sitting in the office compiling a case study booklet for our learning mentors. I have typed seven pages up and now my fingers hurt.

They are the bane of my life. Along with organising workshops. Seriously. What's the point in pulling out at 4.30 the night before? What can I do about that? It's beyond selfish - at least have the decency to contact me in the morning. I could understand if there was an emergency - but not down to poor organisation skills. It's a waste of my time and effort.

I've just advised someone on the rules of debate. Whoop whoop, I know stuff, it would appear.

I am tired. I have bruises on my legs and I have no idea where from, including my inner thigh, which is just plain strange.

Went shopping with Dave yesterday and ended up utterly depressed due to my stupid shape.

<3 Dave.

Argh, stress!

Oh.....and TWENTY SEVEN???

There's no combination of words that I could write on the back of a postcard...

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 08:49:22 GMT

I am so bad at updating.

My head is completely and utterly pickled at the moment.

Confirmation last night that Ryan WAS cheating on me. I knew it anyway, deep down, but still, there's nothing like confirmation to open up the old wounds and make it really hurt all over again.

On the flipside, at least I now know that I WASN'T being paranoid, that I WASN'T being stupid.

Got to love the two-faced-ness of people though. They tell me rubbish, try to drag me into conversation about it, say how I'm a better person, then go and slag me off behind my back. Thanks people, if that's what you want to believe, then go for it. Don't stop to consider that I'm hurting and utterly depressed because my entire life got turned upside down and all I wanted was for people to respect that and STOP asking me.

In other news, yay for Wii Boxing?

It's Christmas Eve

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 14:21:46 GMT

Once again, I have been suckered back into the joys of LiveJournal.

I have no particular desire to open up my old one and to find my old 'friends.' Instead, I have chosen to start afresh.

Start afresh, to go with my new life in London. Quite an optimistic outlook for me, normally being 'Queen Pessimist.' Let's see how long it lasts.

I am currently at work, the only one in the office and really not doing much other than work out my train/flight times to Cornwall. Seems strange to be going back after so long.

I can see myself bailing.